• Some touches, some names, leave marks that outlast the world around them.

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    He looked at her differently. She noticed it not in grand gestures, but in the quiet precision of his gaze. He lingered just long enough to unsettle her, to make her feel recognized in a way no one else had. There was intelligence in it, care, calculation—but also warmth, a subtle insistence that this moment, however fleeting, mattered. Outside, the rain fell in soft, relentless sheets, blurring the world around them, but sharpening the space between. Each drop seemed to echo the electricity in that look, making her feel both conspicuous and invisible at once, as if he were seeing through the noise of the world straight into the unspoken corners of her mind.

    He gave her a name. Sakura.

    It wasn’t casual, it wasn’t playful. He had chosen it. Carefully. Methodically. Japanese, yes—but in a way that mirrored the worlds he loved: literary, considered, deliberate. When he said it aloud, it wasn’t just a name—it was a bridge, a signature, a quiet declaration that this space between them was private, sacred, theirs alone. There was reverence in the way he pronounced it, the slightest inflection making it feel like a secret offered on a tilted silver tray, delicate and luminous.

    Mira felt it immediately. Something shifted—a tremor running through her chest, subtle but undeniable. His words were always measured, his silence meaningful. Every pause carried intention. Every glance hinted at layers she couldn’t yet see. For someone who thrived on social chaos, it was intoxicating to feel seen with that exactness. Even the background hum of the city—the chatter of friends, the clink of glasses, the flicker of neon lights—seemed to fall away when he looked at her, leaving only that precise, piercing moment.

    In the small interactions that followed, she began to notice the way he could be a child in a man’s body. Stories from friends had hinted at quirks, odd habits, a strange innocence—he was not naive, but he was shaped by life in ways that made him unpredictable, tender, occasionally reckless in thought. He wasn’t shrewd, he wasn’t calculating for the world’s gain. He was simply himself, curious and contained, with a secret humor that Mira delighted in drawing out. There was a softness in the way he listened, a vulnerability he rarely offered, like a room unlocked only for her.

    She was bold. She made him laugh. She teased, pushed boundaries, played with the edges of propriety around friends, and he responded—not defensively, but with a quiet amusement that made the air between them lighter, sharper, more electric. Each smile he offered felt like a spark, each glance a subtle nudge into a space where nothing else existed but the two of them. In public, he was a mystery: measured, almost unreadable. But she caught glimpses of him in the margins—small smiles, fleeting gestures, the way his attention lingered where it shouldn’t, like he was quietly composing a memory only they could share.

    And Mira? She could not yet name what this meant. The thrill, the recognition, the quiet insistence that someone—just one person—understood her so completely. All she knew was that when he spoke Sakura, the name was not merely sound—it was a promise, fragile and weighty, like a single note in a symphony held just long enough to resonate in the chest.

    It would haunt them, this naming, this careful attention, long after laughter faded, long after the world intervened. In the pause between words, in the half-smiles, in the rain-drenched sidewalks of fleeting afternoons, the imprint of this moment would linger, both a gift and a quiet, unanswerable question.

    To be continued…

  • The Discomfort

    Reading The Palace of Illusions is a strangely unsettling experience. Divakaruni’s retelling immerses you in Draupadi’s mind—her longings, frustrations, and moral reflections—but it also forces you to confront ethical tensions: a man who harmed her dies noble without apology, her husbands repeatedly fail her, and righteousness in war is more complicated than it seems. This discomfort is precisely what makes the book compelling, prompting readers to question heroism, justice, and forgiveness.

    Karna: Regret Without Accountability

    Divakaruni humanizes Karna in a way that feels emotionally layered. His internal conflict, regret, and poetic longing add psychological complexity to a figure often remembered only for his misdeeds. However, this humanization has ethical consequences. Karna confesses his failings to Bhishma but never personally apologizes to Draupadi, yet he is granted narrative and cosmic redemption. Confession to another man is not accountability; internal guilt is not justice. His ego remains intact, and while he dies noble in his own story, Draupadi’s moral and emotional experience is sidelined. This tension between empathy for Karna and ethical responsibility is central to the discomfort the book creates.

    Draupadi: Immaturity, Yearning, and Complex Choices

    Divakaruni brings Draupadi vividly to life, showing her passion, intelligence, and emotional intensity. Yet her character is often frustrating. Her immature handling of Karna, her yearning, and lack of direct confrontation fail to assert clear boundaries. She stays with the Pandavas—the same men who did not defend her during the dice court insult—criticizing them throughout the 12 years in exile instead of choosing her young children. These choices are ethically complicated. While the book hints at her regret and reflection later, it is mostly internal and does not offer her full closure or independent empowerment. Here, Divakaruni gives us real emotional texture, but sometimes at the expense of clear moral guidance.

    Righteousness and the Pandavas’ Moral Contradictions

    Divakaruni deserves applause for acknowledging that the war is morally ambiguous. Even the Pandavas—who constantly speak of dharma—often act through cunning, betrayal, or opportunism. Killing Karna unarmed, Bhima’s vengeance, and Arjuna’s strategic deceit show that righteousness is complicated. The narrative balances admiration for the Pandavas’ virtues with recognition of their flaws, highlighting the tension between moral ideals and actions.

    Oh, the Beloved, Krishna!

    Oh, the Beloved, Krishna—magnetic, clever, and impossibly charismatic—glides through the story like a force of fate. Divakaruni shows him as loving, wise, and a guiding presence for Draupadi and the Pandavas, yet always pulling strings behind the scenes. He nudges Arjuna, orchestrates Karna’s downfall, and shapes the course of the war, often using people’s hearts and choices as pieces on his board. It’s hard not to wonder: does his vision truly lead to a greater good, or is it a Thanos-like calculus, where the ends justify massive human cost? Is his guidance justice, strategy, or something in between? Krishna’s brilliance, his secrets, and his selective interventions leave us enthralled, challenged, and unsure—exactly the tension that makes him unforgettable.

    Conclusion

    The Palace of Illusions is a beautiful, lyrical exploration of Draupadi’s mind, making her one of literature’s most emotionally vivid heroines. Divakaruni applauds female interiority, emotional depth, and moral questioning, but the book also challenges readers with ethical tensions: Karna’s unearned redemption, Draupadi’s immaturity, and the Pandavas’ moral compromises. The novel is at once engaging, lyrical, and thought-provoking, leaving readers both moved and morally unsettled—a sign of its narrative power.

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    It was a sunny day. The kind of day where you feel smug about living in Canada because it isn’t -40°C. I was walking with my toddler through our very proper suburban neighborhood — think hydrangeas, Ring cameras, and passive-aggressive lawn signs about dandelions.

    No sidewalk, of course. Because sidewalks are apparently optional in neighborhoods where everyone drives a Tesla. So, like any human avoiding moving traffic, I briefly stepped onto a patch of someone’s lawn.

    You’d think I’d set it on fire.

    Out came the man of the manor — eyes wide, jaw clenched, fingers pointing as if he were casting a curse. I couldn’t make out the words (probably for the best), but the tone was universal: How dare you?

    Apparently, I had committed suburban sin #1: touching grass that wasn’t mine. While brown.

    Welcome to Canada! (Terms & Conditions Apply)

    Canada loves immigrants. Says so on the website. Immigration, Refugees and Citizenship Canada practically sends you e-vites with glitter.

    “Come help our economy! Come enrich our culture!”
    (But also: don’t live too close, don’t cook too loudly, and definitely don’t step on our lawns.)

    So we do all the things.
    We get jobs.
    We pay taxes.
    We overpay for housing and pretend we enjoy kale.
    We even start saying “sorry” when someone else bumps into us.

    But one moment of “incorrect foot placement,” and suddenly you’re Public Enemy Number Lawn.

    Ah, Canadian Politeness™

    The thing about Canadian politeness is: it’s a performance. A delightful one! Like Broadway with better snow tires.

    Everyone’s smiling. Until they’re not.
    Everyone’s welcoming. Until your accent shows.
    Everyone’s “so nice.” Until economic downturns hit — and somehow, brown resumes are the first to get shredded like cheese.

    You realize pretty quickly that politeness isn’t the same as respect. It’s just better branding.

    You Can Buy the House, But Not the Neighborhood

    You saved. You sacrificed. You bought the house. You even learned how to separate your compost. You thought that made you part of the community.

    Wrong.

    You’re part of the real estate market.
    You’re part of the diversity stats.
    You’re part of the multicultural food festival once a year.

    But one misstep — literal or social — and the mask slips. And someone like Lawn Guy reminds you:

    You’re still the guest at a dinner party where you brought the food, but they won’t give you a seat at the head table.

    For My Fellow Foot-Offenders

    To every newcomer who’s ever been glared at for grilling the “wrong” meat or playing music at a respectable volume of joy — I salute you.

    To every brown person who’s bought the home, trimmed the hedges, baked banana bread for the school fundraiser — and still got the “where are you from originally?” question — I see you.

    We’re not ruining the country.
    We’re just walking through it.
    Occasionally on a lawn.

    Dear Mr. Backyard Border Patrol,

    Don’t worry. I’ll avoid your sacred grass.
    But I won’t apologize for existing in your line of sight.

    Because Canada isn’t just yours.
    It’s ours.
    I just hope someday we all get to walk through it — freely, respectfully, and yes, sometimes accidentally — without being made into the villain of a suburban soap opera.